Monday, January 2, 2012

A year ago today.......

A year ago this morning I woke up to the phone call no one wants to receive.  My dad had passed away during the night.  Now, while this was not shocking news to me -- he was 83 and wanted so badly to be with my mom -- there was still that moment that grabbed me -- there would be no more chats with him about life, no more scribbling notes in his calendar for him to find at random times, and no more hearing him call me "Pamkin".

I am forever grateful to my parents for the many gifts they gave me -- none of which appeared under a Christmas tree.  They taught me what it means to love each other -- unconditionally.  They taught me to give of my time and energy until it hurts -- and then give some more.  They taught me to work hard -- and then play harder.  Work is the vehicle that provides your family money to live and be together.

Perhaps the greatest, and most meaningful thing they taught me was a sense of family.  I remember one of my nieces asking after Dad passed away if our family would still get together for holidays and vacations and such -- such an interesting worry.  She loves our family and wanted to be sure she would still get to experience that sense.  Oddly enough, even in their death -- perhaps because of it -- I feel as if our family is even tighter than before.

My parents were both pretty awesome people, if I do say so myself.  I have been amazed at how many people have mentioned to me in the past year that they worked with Dad on a job or a project, and how much they enjoyed it.  Some of these people worked with him 40 and 50 years ago!  Even in his death, he has taught me that people will ALWAYS remember how you treated them.

So today, while you are going about your business -- whether working, or cleaning up after the holidays, or getting your kids or yourself ready to go back to school -- remember that there are people out there who need you -- maybe it's just a smile or a loving touch, but they need you.  Don't be afraid to share your gifts!

This song has been on my heart this morning.  God's plan is so much bigger than we can see -- and woven throughout it are His many blessings.  We just need to wait out the plan to see what it holds for us!

R.I.P., Dad.  You're certainly on my heart today!


  1. Oh Pam, I knew this anniversary was coming up soon! You've been in my prayers. Blessings one of my favorite songs that brings so many feelings to the surface. Your dad and mom were awesome, and they live on through you and your families, and that's their legacy and gift to the world!

    Love you Pammy!!


  2. Joyce -- thanks so much. The "firsts" are always the hardest -- as you well know. You didn't do so bad yourself in the parent department. :)